Sometimes I think in many ways I am my own worst enemy. I have a tendency to think and dwell on things too much. I wish sometimes my mind had an off switch.
I guess by nature I am somewhat anxious. I come by it honestly. I envy people who can just let things roll off their shoulders and trust that everything will work out.
One of the things that has been plaguing my mind is the idea of injustice. What I mean in particular is watching people live the way they want to live without regard for God, and yet they seem to have the things in life they want.
I was reading in Jeremiah 12 last night where he questions God's justice. "Why does the way of the wicked prosper? Why do all the faithless live at ease?" My heart and mind cannot reckon this. I completely identify with Jeremiah. It saddens me to watch people prosper who do not live the way God wants us to. I don't mean to sound like I am looking down on people who are not as good as me, because I have my own hangups in my walk with God.
I guess what struck me in looking at Jeremiah is God's response to the whys. He doesn't offer an answer specifically to those questions. Maybe he didn't think he needed to answer whys. I've learned that he rarely, if ever, does. That is his perogative, after all he is God.
I have lots of why questions, and I can make myself CRAZY thinking about them but never find an answer. What I am reminded of are the promises God makes to me about living faithfully.
"Misfortune pursues the sinner, but prosperity is the reward of the righteous." Prov 13:21
"A man of perverse heart does not prosper; he whose tongue is deceitful falls into trouble." Prov. 17:20
"He who conceals his sins does not prosper, but whoever confesses and renounces them finds mercy." Prov 28:13
"A greedy man stirs up dissension, but he who trusts in the Lord will prosper." Prov. 29:25
"Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful." Heb 10:23
"You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised." Heb 10:36
"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." Heb 11:9
God is faithful to his promises, so I have to trust that he has and will bring about those things in my own life. I guess my problem is the waiting!
"I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord." Psalm 27:13-14