Wednesday, September 30, 2009

The Wall

Well....I think I may have reached it. I am completely frustrated with my running right now. It seems like I have trained and worked and progressed, but at the moment I can't seem to get where I need to be.

Tonight I ran half the distance of what I'm supposed to run in a week and a half, and barely made it. BARELY! I have been running this distance for a good month now, and should be used to it. I just feels like I'm running in tar. I'm sure the heat this evening accounts for part of it, but it just seems like I should be getting farther.

October 10th is the day of my 10k. I'm really nervous that I won't be ready. I don't expect to medal or go particularly fast, I just want to finish and not embarrass myself.

I was just praying tonight while I was running. In this small, insignificant way, I want to push this body God gave me to give him glory. I want to prove to myself that I can do this if I just work hard enough for it.

Utterly frustrated.....in need of prayers.....

5 comments:

Mommahen said...

Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I PRESS on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and STRAINING toward what is ahead, I PRESS on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. Phillippians 3:12-14

Anything worth having comes with opposition--ESPECIALLY the things of God. So forget yesterday's run. One thing Chris taught Matthew a long time ago--you will never run your best race if you're always looking over your shoulder. And as you run, remember, God is there on the side lines cheering you every, single. step. of. the. way.
Love you!

Rebekah said...

Praying - God will provide

cemotosnack said...

I can't imagine how frustrating that has to be for you. To work at something with all you have and just not get your body to do what you want.

Just remember that God is glorified in the discipline you are showing and in the way you are taking care of your body ... no matter how far you run.

Love ya Sarah and I am praying that you get over that wall and reach your goal.

sherryfisher said...

You have done amazing things in what seems to be a relatively short time. I am incredibly impressed!! God is teaching you things in this. You are learning to talk to Him while you are pushing yourself. You are learning things about the amazing body He gave you. I don't know what else you are learning, but I know God is teaching.

I'm sorry you hit a wall. I know you enough to know you will find a way over it :) Love you lady...

Sarah said...

I feel better after running my long distance of the week yesterday. I drove my running route last night to check my mileage and discovered I'm 0.9 mi shy of next weeks race. That is doable. I may collapse at the finish line, but I'm pretty sure I'll finish! My time isn't what I'd like it to be, but I should finish.